Isn’t it crazy how quickly time goes? I can’t believe that today marks a year since my amputation! It’s not been the easiest of journeys so far but it’s one that’s taught me a lot about myself.
So a year ago today I went through with the biggest choice of my life. After being in the amount of pain I was in for so long I didn’t really see any other option so having the amputation wasn’t such a big deal to me. However, looking back now I see what a huge decision it was and I’m proud of myself for making that decision for ME.
I feel very lucky that when it comes down to phantom pains I only suffered for 3 days. I know some people 20-30 years on still suffering with phantom pains so I couldn’t be more grateful with the way it’s turned out for me. Im always getting phantom sensations but those I don’t mind, it’s like I’m always wiggling my toes because I can feel them, even if they’re not there. People find it strange when I tell them that but I honestly love it!
I was able to take home my first prosthetic leg on my 18th Birthday and even go down town with it that same weekend! Although I’ve not been as lucky when it comes down to prosthetic legs I’ve still enjoyed and been thankful for every minute that they have agreed with me! I’ve very briefly been able to go out and do the things I wanted and finally feel that little bit of normality come back to me. I’ve been able to buy my first pair of the same size shoes and for them to fit both feet for once! It’s the little things like that I get happy about.
Obviously the year hasn’t been all so straightforward, in the summer I was unfortunate enough to get an infection in my stump which called for my first time in an ambulance and then a second time and another small operation. I apparently was septic which is life threatening so I was rushed in to drain all the rubbish from my leg. It was just a blur to me, I didn’t realise the seriousness of it until I spoke to mum afterwards. A few months down the line once everything was settled I was hit again with another infection but luckily we caught this one early so it was a case of antibiotics and rest!
After the infections it had kind of ruined my scar tissue in my stump that was protecting my bone, which was now sticking out an awful lot making it impossible to get a prosthetic that wouldn’t cause me pain, so in the December just a couple days before Christmas I had another operation to take off, another, 2cm from my leg and neaten a scar that I had from another surgery. I’m still in recovery from that and I’m hoping tomorrow will be the day I get my prosthetic leg.
I may not be where I had planned to be a year on but you never know what’s going to happen. I am extremely grateful to my friends and family for supporting me everyday I’d honestly be lost without them. I am looking forward to the day that I finally get to where I want to be, being able to walk without support and to be happy!