Walking, Feelings and Limbless Association.

Walking, Feelings and Limbless Association.

Hi guys, For saying I literally do nothing all day I’m not very good with keeping this blog up to date! Nearly a week later than when I said I’d post but anywhere here I am!
So in my last blog post I was saying how in my next physio session they’d be getting me up walking! Well I did it! I did my very first steps, not with my own prosthetic leg but with the dummy one. 

It’s a little bit harder to walk with this dummy one than it will be with my own prosthetic leg because it stops my knee from bending so it’s a bit of a weird walk really! To begin with it felt strange, like walking on a dead foot, you know something’s holding you up but you just can’t actually feel that floor for yourself, in some strange way though it was nice. For the first time in my life I stepped my right leg down and didn’t get a pain from my foot/ankle! 
I’ve done 2 walking sessions now and the second one was, to me, absolutely amazing. I didn’t feel the need to hold on as tight to the bars besides me and my confidence in walking reached a new level! However to say this whole thing is going to be easy would be a lie. For as long as I’ve been able to walk and I’ve never walked “normally” and had my own little way of doing so. Having support from sticking my foot off to the side or taking more support through one leg,my hips and my back it’s going to be a difficult habit to break from. 


It’s like your entire life you’ve walked in a way that to you was normal and then suddenly you’ve got to stop it, it’s not normal and you’re being trained to walk an entirely new way that everyone else finds simple, it’s natural. To me not so natural. 

Something I don’t like is change, so everything being different is taking some time to get used too. 
Recently I’ve felt more vulnerable to comments than what I ever have done and stares from people. I’ve never had a problem with being different because it wasn’t really noticeable before, unless you saw me walking. However now, you can visibly see I’m different. I know having one leg doesn’t make me a different person, but it definitely makes me stand out and right now I do not wish to be standing out. I’m not ashamed of being an amputee or regret it one bit, but it does make people treat you differently. I suppose because people have treated me as if I’m vulnerable it’s began to make me feel it? I am trying though, to keep my old self going and embracing this change. Maybe it’s a change that everybody goes through at different points in there life and I’m just noticing mine more?

On a positive note, I’ve been noticing that my blogs are reaching more people, even in different countries! Places I’ve never visited or know anyone from and the people that I do know tell me how they enjoy my blogs and how informative they are. I never expected such a positive reaction from this. I expected to post one and then take it down and keep it private for myself incase nobody was interested, but it turns out quite a few of you are so that’s something that makes me happy. 
Whether this blog helps other people like me going through the same situation or just informs people things they didn’t know so they could help others it’s all for good reason! And on that topic, I recently came across a page called Limbless Association. This page has people who have different missing limbs and volunteers who help amputees like myself. At the moment they’re wanting to widen their exposure I suppose you could call it? Right now the page are needing signatures so that more people can find it. From the last time I checked it only needed a little over 40 more. All it takes is to click on the link that I will post on the end and signing in to either your Facebook or twitter and clicking the red support button. It won’t spam you with anything or hack your social media it’s just letting them know you’ve recognised them and you never know, one day you or someone you know may need them! I know that I get well over 200 views in just the first day of uploading so if only half of you signed that would help out massively. It’s 2 minutes of your time to help others without much effort really and it really will help! 

https://www.thunderclap.it/projects/53960-march-with-us-into-march?locale=en

If you’ve got this far then you’ve reached the end of today’s blog! Thank you for keeping with me! 

Chloe,x

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Nothing can stop me

Nothing can stop me

It’s been a little while since my last blog post and that’s purely because I’ve been focusing on recovery and getting out and about but I promise to start regular updates again!

In this blog post it’s just going to be a little update on what I’ve been up too and how I’ve coped because quite a bit has happened.

 To begin with I went to a gig/concert I’m not really sure what to call it. Before my operation I had booked these tickets with my best friend Amira to see a band called Mic Lowry. Mum had told me it was silly to book the tickets as we were unsure of the operation date and it would be likely I wouldn’t get to go so would end up wasting my money and being disappointed. Well…I’m bloody glad I went against her on this one because we went and it was amazing! It was one of my main goals to get out of hospital and be in as little pain as possible to I could enjoy this night and I did it! We also bumped into two girls that we had met at the last one which was cute because we didn’t even plan too!

What made that night even better was the fact we got to meet them after the show, wheelchair users obviously got to go first!!!

I also went to my friends 18th birthday party the other day. To me this was a big one, although I didn’t show it. I was going to a house mainly with people I didn’t know and that didn’t know me or about my amputation. Turns out I made good friends with 2 girls from there and everyone was pretty understanding, I didn’t get spoken about or treated differently like I thought I might have and even ended up dancing to Macarena (with the odd occasion of falling down on the sofa and getting back up again) and leaning on Emily who helped me stay up whilst I danced! 
Emily will kill me for using this picture but look how normal we look, you’d never tell I was balancing on one leg!

Those 2 are my biggest achievements so far, other than those I’ve also been shopping with my brother, Amira and mum and dad and even braved getting into the taxi in my wheelchair with my brother! Besides the day trips my physio sessions have been amazing too!


Each session, to me, is better and better. Obviously that’s what you expect, progress, but I never thought that the progress I’ve made so far would happen this quickly. All of my bandages are off, I have just the one covering my wound and that is literally just resting on it not stuck down and has a sock covering and my Juzo. I guess you’re wondering what a Juzo actually is. Well it’s just simply a compression sock, what I find better about this is I can take it off at night and it’s also like a darker skin tone colour to my own so it isn’t massively noticeable. Ever since I’ve had it it’s made my phantom sensations calm down and made no end of difference, I didn’t think I’d like it but I proved myself wrong!  

This is the Juzo, you can see how it compresses everything by the fat at the top of my leg! Please ignore how hairy it is too, I’ve not been able to shave my leg yet!

Today I tried a compression bag, this is what my leg will be in when I learn to put weight through my leg! They only put the pressure to half of what it will be when I’m actually standing but it wasn’t actually that bad, my next session is Monday…so that means Monday they’ll be getting me standing up and testing out my weight bearing, my excitement for this is massive! I was also told today that it may only be 3 weeks until I get casted for my prosthetic leg! Only 8 weeks after my amputation! It’s so exciting because my birthday is round about 6 weeks away so I hope and pray I may have my leg in time all going well! 
Right now I’m in a very good place, I have my odd moments when I feel a tad low or uncomfortable with my leg but they soon pass when I put everything into prospective and realise how far I’ve come in such a little time period. I couldn’t be more proud of myself. Everything is looking up for once!
My next blog will more than likely be Monday evening, hopefully with good news on the physio session! 
Thank you for reading and your constant support
Chloe,x
(Ps. My featured photo is from my mirror therapy, although it really does look as though I’ve got 2 normal legs haha!)